Think of happy thoughts,....

Recently,.

Life has been really hard on me. or am I just hard on myself?? maybe as some people say im just being too serious huh?? Shit!!!! If I just have a choice I would not want to be serious too. Being serious has its advantages and disadvantages. Being serious causes more pain but being not serious means you dont even care. Is that what you want me to do? not care about this thing at all?? It has been really hard for me to not talk to you last three days ago. Imagine, I have to spend my christmas season wondering how are you rather than just talking with you? Darn.... a while ago, I watched GTO to try and cheer myself up. but do you know what happened?? I cried and I cried my heart out. Crying made me feel a little better but for how long?? I wonder,. Oh, and guess what. after watching GTO I browsed some TV channels and watched something on HBO,. at first I dont have the idea what it is. but when I saw a boy flying I quickly realized that it is the movie a certain someone close to my heart really loves. yep you guessed it right the movie was peter pan. the recent version I think. Damn,. God sure is a very good commedian. After crying my heart out He quickly reminded me of the one im actually crying about. Shet!!!!! Is this a joke God wanted to give me as a gift on christmas?? Well,. it is actually late for christmas but that was one hell of a gift I might say.....

Goal,...

"Think of happy thoughts, and maybe fly to a place where I could be happy for the rest of my Damn life."