Life,..
Shet!!!,. today, my finals is finally over!! yeah,. but I feel a little worried about the exam I took a while ago. It was for ANMATH2,. I was really really careless this time. I don't know why I wasn't able to solve those basic questions. I don't know what was on my mind. Maybe that is what happens when you don't sleep and don't study,. Shit!!! thank God I only need 14 percent in that exam to pass the course,. I just hope I do pass this course. This is already my second take and I don't want to retake this subject again!!!

Love,..
hmmmmmmmmmm,...........
I wish I could just go on with my life without thinking bout this. I promised myself not be this crazy about a girl years ago. but why is it happening now? I feel as if everyday I am afraid of losing her. The feeling inside me is like a bomb,. waiting for its time to explode. earlier, i tried to cry to make myself release all my bad feelings but yet again I can't,. I really wish this christmas I could get to cry one whole day that I may regain the things in my personality which I lost,...

Thoughts,..
I don't know what to do to cheer myself up. and I can't say that I'm not trying. I tried watching my favorite show a while ago but it didn't help. I tried to play my favorite ps2 games but it didn't also help. Shet!!!! what can i do to make myself happy even for a short time?? God,. is this Karma? shet,. if it is,. I can conclude that karma do exist and it comes to you quick that you don't even notice it. Now, I can only pray and listen to songs that well really make me feel allot sadder. I have been wishing this for a long time but God can't seem to hear me. God, can you take me already? I don't want to stay in this cruel world anymore.

This song is what I feel to be a good description of how I feel right now.

What Can I Do

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

Love me..